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I spent my formative years overseas. So did my music tastes. This country overseas was quite out of touch with mainstream American culture. Thus am I. In some ways this has been a good thing, and in some ways bad. I'm glad for my life story, but it can result in social complications. I'm not going to go into all of them right now.

But one of them is music. I came back to the US and had sixteen years of popular music to catch up on. That's a lot. So I just didn't. I'm very much clueless when it comes to music. Even though my dad was a professional musician. The only effect that had was to inundate me with jazz and classical music growing up and to make me feel guilty about not practicing piano more. But I'm getting sidetracked. So, I came back to the States and had no clue what to listen to or what was popular. And I still have very little.

I'm usually okay with being clueless about pop culture stuff. And for the most part this is the case here. But not always. I have very vague music tastes right now. I pretty much listen to anything. But I'm really insecure about the music that I like. I don't mind telling people I like Russian and Chechen pop (cause they've never heard it and wouldn't understand it), or classical and jazz (you can't go wrong there. They are not cool but are also not not cool). So that part is all right. Not anything else though. Too often I feel that I will be judged by the kind of music I like.

So I dodge the question. I don't tell people what kind of music I like. I get anxious, then tell them I'll listen to anything. But I have a growing music collection. I hide it, mostly.